Four plus

Mommy is so late with blogging your 4th month. You turned four months on the 17th and haven't looked back since. You bring such joy and love to our lives! Nobody can resist those chubby cheeks and bright eyes of yours. You are the happiest baby I know! You have discovered a love for your toes.....and oh-so-close you are to tasting them too. You squeal and coo to anybody and everybody who will listen. Sometimes so much that it's hard to get a word in. You puffy heart your big brother and could watch him run around all day long. He makes you laugh more than anyone can. You are learning how to sleep through the night....8 pm to 9 am....not too shabby...although you usually wake up at 5 or 6 am to snack but who's complaining. You have recently sampled rice cereal for the first time and love, love, love it so very much. I think you were wondering why we were holding out on this delicious part of life. You couldn't get your mouth open far enough and even grabbed the spoon from me! I think my subconscious was purposefully forgetting to pick up the cereal at the store because it knew it was one of many milestones you are going to hit here quickly. I'm not ready for you to grow up just yet. I could've held your sleepy little face in my arms all night tonight. You are the baby every Mommy dreams of. Thanks for making all my dreams come true little one!

Love,

Your Mommy

ok

I'm okay with it. If it makes you feel better and helps you sleep a little longer.

We'll worry about it later. I won't listen to what other people say either.

Love you!

Bring on the Big Boy Bed

We haven't taken Monkey out of his crib yet because he sleeps REALLY well in it. We just bit the bullet and bought another one for our Little Man. He's never attempted to get out of it. We figured we were good to go and after he turned two we'd transition it into a big boy bed.

I don't think he's going to make it until he's two (and that's only 23 days away). I was sitting on the couch this morning enjoying the Today show when I heard a thud from his room. I got up, rounded the corner and not only was the light in his room shining from under the door, but I was greeted by his little face.....walking around his room....."hi Mommy"!!

I guess you're true to your name....Monkey!

Yeah Target!!!

I've been looking for one of these car seat covers that goes over the top for a couple months now. I couldn't find one online....or at least one that wasn't made from some cheesy fabric and definitely did not look boyish. Maybe I was being a little anal....but who wants their little boy being carted around covered in bright flowers or stripes that consist of every color of the rainbow.....yes that includes pink and purple.....not me and certainly not his Daddy!! I think I'm the only one who doesn't really like the Bundle Me, and I'm tired of wrestling with blankets.

I was psyched last week when I found one at Babies 'r Us. Only to come home and find that the hole for his cute little face to poke through didn't have a cover for it. HELLO.....that's the whole point.....for the love, I love in Alaska.......help a Mommy out!!

Fast forward to Tuesday night when I was running to Target for deodorant and cough syrup (for my Hubby...no I'm not giving cough syrup to my kiddos). I took my usual path through Target even though I was only suppose to be going to the pharmacy section...I can't help they program the carts to be on autopilot when you go there. They just automatically lead you to the baby section, the seasonal section, sometimes the toys and usually the picture frames, only to finish in the card section.....ahhh I'm experiencing it right now.....give me a minute....okay.....anywho I was beside myself with glee when I found the above cover hanging on the hook. THE LAST ONE!! It was meant to be. I even thanked God that night in my prayers.....silly I know.

But it's super nice...boyish....and look my Little Man even likes!! Leave it to Target to pull through for me!! Once again, thanks to the Target gods for building me one up here!!

needed

I needed to see this sweet, sleepy face tonight

after our tough evening.

Sweet Dreams and God Bless You

Magic Wand

Today, Little Man, I got your newborn photo book in the mail from the photographer. After I put you and your brother to bed tonight, I sat down and opened it.

And the tears fell off my cheeks.

Where does the time go? How are you 2 days shy of 4 months?

I would do anything to stop time right now and hold onto these moments forever. These sweet little baby boy moments. Little chubby baby feet. Huge open mouthed drooly baby smile. Silly coo's and goo's. Precious sleeping baby face. I want to hold you all day long and smother you with kisses.

Why can't we have magic wands in real life? I suppose then it wouldn't be considered real life.

Please grow at your own pace little one.....i just hope that pace is slow......love you to pieces!!

32 and Happy

Saturday was my 32nd birthday. Some people dread their birthdays. I love them. Embrace them. It's a day to celebrate and be spoiled. It's a day to celebrate another year!

I have plenty to celebrate: the birth of our second beautiful son and the fact that he is the most patient, healthy, and sweet little baby ever; the joy and love that Monkey brings to our lives; the most wonderful, loving husband a girl could ask for (did I mention handsome too:); the marriage of my baby sister to a great, fun-loving guy (welcome to the family "Uncle Bwian"); our health and happiness. I could go on, but you get the idea!!

The day started out great....getting to sleep in until 10:30 bc Hubby got up with the kiddos. Being woke up by Monkey saying "Happy Birfday Mommy". Hubby made crepes...mmm good! Doing absolutely nothing all day long but hanging out in our pj's. Tucking Monkey in that night he made my heart swell when he said to me without any coaching from Daddy "Happy, Happy Birfday Mommy".....my eyes were full of tears of love when I walked out of his room that night.

It was a happy day for me. Nothing special but I couldn't have asked for a better way to spend it than with the boys I love!!

Monkeyisms

• We were sitting on the floor today in front of the mirror making silly faces and all of a sudden, you turned around and started "styling" my hair. When you were finished, you said "better"......hmmm......so you're not fond of the "no shower yet, fly aways out-of-control" look.
• You devour 6 inch turkey and cheese sandwiches from Subway...the more pickles and olives the better....that's my boy!
• Oh and now you L.O.V.E "kepup" on your "fench fies".
• We were decorating the tree last weekend, and I gave you a little porcelain Donald Duck (he has his hand up in the air waving) to hang. I looked over and after you found the perfect spot, you were giving him high fives....too cute!! Later on you were giving the bear, Santa, and the cow ornaments kisses!!
• You're really into racing your cars up and down things lately.....the couch cushions, our cardboard tube race ramp, the bathtub, your little brother's head and back.....hmmm....i'm not quite sure about that last one.....he somehow ended up with tire marks on his forehead the other day.....
• You have the mind of a steel trap kiddo....amazing what you can remember after only seeing it once.....
• Since you are now interested in cartoons, we decided to have our first family movie night the other week. It was a huge hit!! You loved Madagascar.....laughing out loud and everything....too cute.....i don't know if your daddy and I laughed more at the movie or you!!

Could it be?

I'm knocking on wood as I type this.....could it be the beginning of the end? You slept through the night Little Man. I had your Daddy check on you at 4:30 when he left for work, and I didn't hear you until 5:30. You have been stretching your night feeding longer and longer. Maybe we are closer to....dare I say....sleeping through the night. From 8 PM until 5:30 AM....not bad at all!

PS. That would be the best Christmas present for your Mommy!!! :)

Off....

Sorry Monkey.....your Mama was off by a day this week. I thought Monday was the 8th when I posted. Didn't realize it until later that night. What are you going to do with me?

Almost 2

Monkey,

You are 23 months old today! I can't believe we are going to celebrate your 2nd birthday in one month. How did you get this big? You never cease to amaze us either! You are a go-getter. Nothing is ever going to hold you back. You are a constant mover and groover. You chitter chatter nonstop. You know your numbers up to 15...WOW....we love when you randomly start counting things that you are playing with or we are reading. And speaking of reading.....YOU HEART BOOKS.....any book you can get your hands on. We could read for hours straight, and you'd never get tired of it.

You love anything that has to do with tractors, trucks, cars, or trains....including running your Hot Wheels over your little brother's head and down his back the other day. You are working hard on going on the big boy potty. We have good days and bad days. We never thought we would be this far with potty training at this point, but as always, you have taken the bull by the horn.

You love your little brother with all your might. I know when the day comes you will both be the best of buds. You share your treasured monster trucks with him, but stop at sharing "Zeba" with him. We can respect that!!

You challenge us everyday little man! I hope that challenging spirit stays with you for the rest of your life. It is going to take you places. Good places! It may make some of our days not as fun as others but always know that we love you with all of our heart and soul. At the end of the day, we thank God for our little Monkey! Hugs and kisses to you buddy!

"Wuv You"

Your Mommy

Giving Thanks (a little late)

Thank you for two beautiful sons, a loving husband, two goofy dogs, a wealth of wonderful family and friends, food on our table, our health, and a comfortable life.

For endless giggles echoing off the walls of our house.
For wet, slobbery grins.
For chubby little boy feet to kiss.
For the pitter patter of those little feet across the floor and down the hallway.
For sweet sleeping baby faces.
For chubby cheeks to smoosh and snuggle.
For the love of brothers.
Thank you God for all you have given me.
I am so blessed.

The "O" Show

Yikes!! You know who you are! We only have one season left to make it to Oprah together. Do you think we can coordinate are busy, crazy lives to pull it off! It's a challenge my bestest buddy!

Back At It

Yesterday was my first day back to work from maternity leave!

Was I sad to leave my babies? Yes. But, yet, I was excited to go be with adults and do what I love to do best next to being a Mommy.

Was I nervous? Sure. Nervous that our littlest man wouldn't take the bottle bc lately he hasn't been that in to it. Nervous that I wouldn't be up with the changes that had happened in 3 months on the floor.

The minute I put on that stethoscope and walked on the floor the nerves left. I was ready. I was so glad I decided to come back and work a few days a month. I think I'm going to find myself looking forward to those few days here and there.

I survived and my boys survived. It was a great day. A busy day. An emotional day both at home and at work. Three months was long enough to forget how sad some of the stories can be. So to Mrs. K. my heart and prayers are with you.

3 Already

How are you already three months? Where does the time go, my sweet boy?! You are just the most perfect little baby. You love life and everyone in it!

Every time I get you out of your crib, you have a huge grin for me. You smile for anyone and anything. Lately, you have discovered that you have a voice and love to test it out. Your squeals are contagious! I could listen to you talk all day long!

You have recently discovered how to roll from your belly to your back. Fun times ahead when you turn that into a 360. You love to watch your big brother run around. I know you secretly can't wait for the day you get to run after him. But I'll share a little secret with you too....I can wait for that day. I'm loving this baby stage oh too much to have you grow up that quick!

You are the sweetest addition to our family! I love you all the way from your sweet little nose to your teeny tiny toes little one! Hugs and kisses forever and always!!

Love, Your Mommy

Halloween

A trip to fantasy land

complete with dragon wings and a mini dinosaur!

Flying the Friendly Skies

A month ago tonight I was crying to my husband because I was about to board an airplane with a 9 week old and a 22 month old. I was asking him what frame of mind I was in when I bought tickets to do this by myself. Here I was with a baby in my Bjorn, backpack loaded to the gills strapped to my back (I think the only in there for me was lotion, chapstick, and an ipod...who am I kidding that the ipod was gonna be for me), stroller with a car seat attached via bungee cord with a toddler strapped into it, camera case, and mini backpack full of goodies and boredom busters. I was CRAZY or "had my hands full" as everyone who encountered me seemed to comment. I had to hide the tears bc I was making Monkey nervous!

Fast forward 3 weeks later and a round trip from Anchorage, Alaska to Omaha, Nebraska under my belt. The airlines have completely regained my respect. You know that line "come fly the friendly skies" that we used to always hear. Well, I don't know about your experiences over the last few years but they have been anything but friendly. I take it all back now. Everyone from flight attendants to gate crew to passengers themselves were so helpful and friendly. Maybe they were just taking pity on me. But it was wonderful! The friendly skies were back.

A special thank you to my two guardian angels that flew with me from Minneapolis to Seattle. Not only did they change their seats so that I could have 3 seats for the kids and I, but they ran through the Seattle airport with me and my kiddos to make sure I would make last connection home (fyi~never leave yourself only 40 minutes to connect in Seattle.....IMPOSSIBLE). Steph ran ahead to the gate to let them know I was coming, and Deb stayed with me fighting the crowds with Monkey in his stroller. By the time we got to the gate they were minutes from closing the door on us. I couldn't have done it without their help! I know you'll never see this, but I'm eternally grateful for your generosity!

Needless to say, I have decided that we won't be able to make the trip back home to visit as often as I'm used to. At least not until the kids are old enough to travel a tad easier. Don't get me wrong, they were wonderful on the flights. It's just a lot of work to entertain and get in between flights. Finding bathrooms to change diapers...yuck. Eating on the run. Hand sanitizer up the ying yang. Makes me sad that this is the case but that's what I signed up for moving up here. Thank goodness for Skype, right!!!

eating my words

yep, never should have attempted to promise to blog "one or two" each day. knew when i wrote it that it would never happen. life is busy. not that you couldn't tell. was back visiting family for 3 weeks. halloween. baptism. terrible two's. precious smiley baby. now snow and -14 cooped up inside with a toddler. will try to do better but making no promises.

Monkeyisms

From the mouth of Monkey

• "keppup pease" - you have found a love for ketchup...licking it off your fries before eating them.
• "bess you" - whenever anyone sneezes or coughs you make sure to bless them :)
• "cuse me" - we were eating dinner the other night and you happened to toot rather loud. without any prompting, you excused yourself....such good manners little man.
• "oh man" - writing this down doesn't give it justice. it is so, so cute when you say it.
• "poomp bottle" - you constantly remind me every morning that i need to pump a bottle for the baby....thanks for not letting me forget!!

We get a kick out of hearing you learn to talk. Constant jibber jabber. I knew you had fallen asleep in the car the other day b/c it was suddenly quiet. No play-by-play from the back seat. Sure enough, with book in hand, you were sawing zzz's!! We look forward to the continued play-by-play Monkey! You always keep it interesting!!

Love you!!

Cobwebs

My Mom called this afternoon and caught me in a crazy-Mama moment. I was complaining that I don't get anything done. It takes me 3 days to clean the house (and we don't have a big house) b/c I'm constantly interrupted by something or someone. I have animals and a picture that have been waiting to be hung up on the wall for 6 weeks now. The main computer has been disassembled for 5 months now!!! I could go on, but I won't bore you.

She caught me at my crazy time. Late afternoon, early evening when I need to get dinner started but Monkey is still playing outside. On a side note, it was absolutely beautiful out today and being in Alaska in October you have to take full advantage of those days. You never know when it's going to be your last one for the next 7-8 months. Little one was waking up and wanted to be nursed. I still needed to go to the store. Ugh!!

Then she reminded me of a little saying:

Cobwebs will wait. They're only little once.

Leave it to your Mama (who always knows best) to put it into perspective for me!

Thanks Mom!! I love you!

So Behind

I'm so behind on blogging. So many things I have running through my mind. Call me crazy but I actually have a list of things to eventually blog on. They are things I don't want to forget. Cute moments that will be forgotten if not written. I guess in due time I will get to them. I should make myself a goal and promise to blog one or two each day, but I don't know if that's asking too much right now. I might just end up letting myself down.....we'll see!

Ironic

~More Shower Humor~

Before our shower tonight (yes, Mommy was being lazy again), you were running around saying "shampoop, shampoop"! We chuckled about it.

Fast forward through the shower, I was out drying off, and you, Monkey, were still in the shower playing. All of a sudden I heard, "ucky, ucky". I looked over and you were standing in the corner pointing at the door. I'm thinking "oh great, what did you find? It's a shower. Nothing is supposed to be ucky." I walk over to find two small poops laying there! I scooped them out and reassured you that everything was okay. The look on your face was priceless, as this was the first time you witnessed your own poopy outside of a diaper. Too funny little man!

What else?

Seriously, what else can the airlines impose on us? Are they going to start charging us for using the bathrooms while in-flight?

Today Delta decided to join the ranks of United and US Airways. They will be charging a $10 surcharge for travel around the holidays (ie. Thanksgiving and Christmas) and some of the time around spring break 2010.

For those of us who fly frequently or depend on our "wonderful" airline industry to fly us to our loved ones, this is frustrating. Just add it into the price of the ticket. Don't tell us your adding a surcharge. We never would have known. This just gives us another reason to not like you but have to depend on you. Ugh......

So...

So sweet.

So patient.

So handsome with your big brown eyes.

So alert to the world around you.

So easy going.

So strong already.

So in love with your big brother.

So willing to wait while I "fix" Monkey's "situations".

So full of smiles that light up our world.

So in LOVE with you are we.

20...almost 21

Oh Monkey, what a month your 20th has been. Hence, the reason I'm writing this 20 minutes before you turn 21 months.

We. Rocked. Your. World.

You. Have. Rocked. Ours. Back.

You are so full of Mr. Independence lately. I love it, but sigh about it all at the same time.

You are the best big brother any little brother could ask for. Thanks for showering the kisses on yours and never forgetting him when it's time to say "night, night"!

My heart quivers at the love I have for you. It grew exponentially this last month.

Always and forever,

Your Mama

Stickers

I was getting in the shower tonight. Monkey was going to join me, as I was too tired to go through the bathtime routine tonight.

As I'm getting undressed and taking my nursing pads out of my bra, he replies, "stickers"! Nope, not really but yeah kinda. Giggling and thinking to myself.....thank goodness they don't really stick!!

Name?

Me: "What's your name?"
Monkey: "Good Boy!"

Wow, we have a lot to work on!!!

Introducing!!!!

Our Newest Blessing

August 17, 2009

12:23 PM

8 pounds, 7 ounces

20 inches

Our little Peanut, we are so in love with you! You came as quite a surprise to us. We hadn't planned on meeting you for two more days, as our c-section was planned for the 19th. You, like your Mama, must love surprises bc you decided on your own that the 17th was going to be your birthday! And surprise you did!! Holy moly you came fast! Much faster than your Mama was ready for.

You knew that you needed to come out and meet this big wide world though. You gave us a scare to start with by not showing us what your cry sounded like, but boy did you let 'er rip once that nurses and doctors worked on you for a bit. You haven't looked back since.

You had a head full of dark brown hair, that beautiful complexion of your Daddy's, and the darkest blue eyes I had ever seen. It was love at first sight for your Daddy and I! You have your Mama's crooked pinky fingers and your Daddy's toes. Long, skinny legs. A slender little face. And a peanut nose. So perfect! God is great!!! You are one of His greatest gifts little one. Simply amazing.

You are patient little one. And adaptable. You can sleep through the craziness of your big brother. You only fuss when you are hungry, dirty, or sleepy. You love to be snuggled close, yet prefer to be carried facing out.....better to take in the world. You are a great little nurser, especially at night :*)!!! Sleep will come little one. This time around your Mama knows there is an end to the sleepless nights.

Your Daddy commented on our second night in the hospital that you complete us. You make us more of a family, not that we were less of a family before. Just a feeling of completeness as we sat there taking both of our boys in. We couldn't have been more proud at that moment!!

You are a sweet little one, Peanut!! I can't wait to watch you grow....just not too fast, OK!! I'm head over heels in love with you. My heart doubled in size when I first met you!

To the moon and back, forever and always!

Love, Your Mommy

Randomness

• How come people have to steal? We went to Freddy's today to get groceries and other things. Hubby needed new white undershirts. When I got them home and opened them up to wash them, there were only 2 in what was suppose to be a package of 3! Ugh!! We decided not to even worry about it, as I didn't want to have to explain myself to customer service and get the "uh huh, whatever you say" look from the cashier!
• How come you nest so late in pregnancy? I'm a procrastinator by nature. I'll be the first to admit it. I've had tons to do for months now, but I've just piddled in each project. I wish I had the zest for cleaning and organizing that I have now at about 20 or 25 weeks. Doesn't it make more sense to have that nesting instinct then.....no big belly in the way, no backaches, no extreme tiredness because you can't sleep at night, hmmmmm!!!
• Speaking of nesting.....I think my Hubby was doing the same thing this weekend. Completely rearranged the garage, moved stuff to the shed, vacuumed the floor in the garage, painted the shoe bench, laid new entry carpet in the garage. Our garage is beautiful right now!!!
• August is here. The rain has arrived. Not all the time but definitely more than we've had all summer. Less sunshine....boo hoo!! More unpredictable.....ugh for family coming up to visit. Fall is just around the corner.....ouch!

Momma Sap

Oh Monkey....thank you for coming and crawling in my lap today. I was dusting the baby furniture, and you came, blankets in tow, to nestle in my lap for no reason. You must have known your Momma needed a snuggle because you don't often do this without me prompting you. We sat there and played with your piggies, tickled your tummy, and you even enjoyed a good back scratching (you take after your Daddy there). It was everything in my power to stop the waterworks from erupting!

They erupted big time on Wednesday when you fell asleep in the chair with me before naptime. We had read our books (Duck in the Truck, Boo Boo, and Goodnight Moon are our standards right now) and were singing "Twinkle, Twinkle" when I noticed your little head swaying with each rock. Sure enough, you were already snoozing! I picked you up and nuzzled you close. It took everything in my power to put you down in your bed and leave the room. I would've stood there forever with you sleeping so peacefully! My tears were getting all over the place though.

Momma doesn't mean to cry at such little things this week. I just can't believe you are such a big boy now! I know you are going to seem so much bigger next Wednesday when your little brother arrives. You'll always be my baby though. Even when your 18 and going off to college saying "Aw Mom, not the tears again"!

I'm just a big Momma Sap right now!! And you make my heart go pitter-patter when you do such sweet things!! I love you so little man!

A break??

Pregnancy hormones.....ahhhhh......their killing me!

Suffice it to say it was a "pain in the butt" weekend.

The straw that broke the watershed......my warmed-up chicken dumpling leftovers dropping out of my hand and onto the floor.....shattering the bowl so hard that I found fragments clear across the kitchen on the counter top!!! I couldn't stop the tears....I tried for Monkey, so he didn't have to see them. He turned around from his chair looking at his Momma with these huge eyes saying "bope, bope" (broke, broke). I had to reassure him that everything was okay including his silly Momma. I don't know if I was more upset about losing another bowl in my dinner set or losing a warm dinner to the floor. I couldn't even call in the dogs and have them clean it up....ugh!

Nine more days until these pregnancy hormones go by the wayside!! Nobody's counting, right?!

Although, then come the postpartum hormones!! Ugh...to be a woman!!

19

You look so much like a little boy in this picture Monkey. No longer a baby!

You are becoming independent much to your Mommy's dismay! In the last week, you have learned how to use "no, no". Actually, it's pretty cute right now, but I'm sure that will change. You have also taken to telling us when you are "poopy". Not every time but almost. So we ran out and bought a potty. You like to stand in it to turn the bathroom light on/off or set your bear on it!! No hurry little man, we'll do it on your own time.

So many new things this last month.

So many new things coming this next month.

You are officially going to become a big brother! I know that you are going to be the best big brother ever. You have such a big heart! You are going to love on your little brother. I just have this feeling.

Nineteen months is going to be a special month for you Monkey!!

I love you so, so very much, forever and always, to the moon and back!!

Battles

You are such a strong-willed little man. You always have been.

Lately, you have been testing the waters though. Really testing the waters.

Mommy partly blames on your head cold from last week and the fact that you were WAY off schedule because family was in town (we all know how that goes). I also partly blame it on being almost 19 months old (sniff, sniff, sigh). And that things are changing around here with your little brother due to arrive in 12 days.

But this is not how I envisioned our last few weeks together to go. You know, the last few weeks before all of our worlds are rocked by the arrival of your little brother. It was suppose to be fun-filled days with your occasional toddler tantrum sprinkled in.

Not toddler tantrums multiple times a day. Battling with you during diaper changes every time. All of a sudden your throwing a battle to have your hands and face washed after eating.....where-o-where did that come from. Just this afternoon before nap you ran behind the recliner and would not come out when I asked you to. You just stood there and grinned at me as if you knew how difficult it was going to be for me to fit my belly behind there to come get you. But come get you I did, and believe me, it was not fun for me either.

Who turned you from Happy to Grumpy dwarf? I would like to have a short little chat with them.

I'm sorry that it's confusing around here lately and that you aren't feeling up to 100% yet. I only wish I could change all of that for you. Maybe it's my fault for "envisioning" how are last few weeks together were going to be. Maybe I set myself up for this.

All I know is that your strong wills are getting the best of me, and it makes Mommy sad. Can my sweet, happy boy come with strong wills too?

Please-o-please with sugar on top and a strawberry too!!!

Long Looks

We live in a neighborhood full of kiddos. They all play so well together!! Monkey is the second to youngest (the youngest is 3 months and the next oldest is 3) of 16 kids on our street. They are great at including him when he scampers over to see what the big kids are doing. They recently have even been ringing the doorbell to ask if he can come out and play!! So sweet!

He loves to be pushed in his car by them and digging in the dirt with someone other than Mom. I love it because it gives me a chance to sit down and read a few pages in my book or just watch from afar.

But, his little face is always so long when they decide to move on to the next house and play. He just sits there and watches until he can no longer see them, waving his little hand, and saying "bye-bye". Breaks my heart every time. He never cries just looks so sad that they decided to go do their big kid stuff, and he's not old enough to follow along!

Someday you will be able to join them Monkey....riding away on your bike or scooter. I know it seems so far away, but it will be here before your Mama is ready. I will wonder how the time went so fast and be thinking that it seems like just yesterday you were a little boy waving bye-bye as the big kids rode off.

Secretly.....I can wait a long time for that day Monkey!

Stuck!

This is Shiloh, our chocolate lab, who didn't come running for her dinner last night! Usually she can't sit still on the deck because she is so excited to eat. I automatically scanned the yard and didn't see her. I went into panic mode thinking she had dug out under the fence and was out running free.



I rushed in the house to get Monkey and the leash. We were going to go walk the neighborhood and hopefully catch up to her. I took one last look in the backyard and happened to hear her whimper from somewhere. I looked down to find her wedged underneath our new shed. And when I say wedged I mean stuck in one position without any room to move at all. Don't ask me what possessed her to do this. She has always been the one to get herself into predicaments that she has trouble getting out of!



I immediately called my husband who was still an hour from getting home from work. So I started digging. I could only dig a little bit with the shovel until it wouldn't fit under the shed enough to do any good, so then I started to dig with my hand shovel.....yep 36 weeks pregnant, bent over, on my hands and knees with "tons" of help from Monkey and Sam, our other lab who was overly concerned that his sister was not going to get out. I'm sure we were quite a site...Monkey and I with our hand shovels and Sam with his front feet all of us bent over, buns in the air, attempting to dig out Shiloh who I was now silently cussing in my head.


When I was about to give up because she was not budging, my father-in-law and his brother showed up!! It actually took a floor jack lifting the shed off the ground to get her out!!!!!!!!!! Ugh! Boy was she a happy girl when she was out though. Running around and rolling on the ground!! I'm sure I was a site for sore eyes covered in dirt, sweat running down my face, and hair flying everywhere! Thankfully she escaped unharmed.



I can only hope she learned her lesson!

Cramped Quarters

Your Daddy and I were able to sneak a glimpse of you today tucked away in my belly. You sure are in cramped quarters. Showing that life is difficult being a little one tucked away in the warmth of your mama.....you had your little arm draped across your eyes and forehead the entire time. Take advantage of your time little one because you are soon to be out in this big, wide, wonderful world!

Steve, the fabulous ultrasound tech, estimated that you already weigh around six pounds, 7 ounces!!!! Holy buckets little one!! If we had decided to let you go to term, you definitely would have beat out your big brother in the weight category.

You already have chubby cheeks and those wonderful pouty lips (courtesy of Daddy) that Monkey sports too. Crooked pinky fingers from your Mama. Can't wait to meet you up close and personal in 3 weeks little man. Until then, enjoy the warmth and protection of my tummy!

Love you so little one!

Almost WW

when did you become a little boy?

Your Words

Here a some of your words Monkey.....new ones come everyday!!

boat~boap
bug~bup
loader~woada
noodle~ooda
cookie~tookie
car~cah
truck~pup
blue~boo
spoon~poon
bike~bite
drink~dink
train~too, too
bus~buh
bear~bah
giraffe~gaf
whoa
uh-oh
owie

A Mountain Dew or Pepsi bottle is still a "Dada", while a water bottle is a "Mama".

You affectionately refer to the tree stump out front that Daddy burnt the ant family out of as a Dada every time you pass it.

Today while perusing the baby section, you spotted a baby on a clothes tag. You grabbed the tag in your hand, commented that it was a baby, and then kissed the tag. My heart melted. You are so sweet little man. You melted my heart just yesterday too. You grabbed your prayer bear, brought it over to me for some helping pushing the button inside, and then took it over to your chair and rocked it. Where did you learn to be so sweet to babies? We haven't been around any little ones lately. Is this your way of telling me that you are ready for your baby brother to come to and that you kinda understand what is going on? Are you helping me with some of my mommy guilt? Thank you Monkey for these little clues.

Four weeks

Four weeks from right now, I will be holding you in my arms little one (if you haven't chosen to arrive a wee bit early). It all still seems so surreal at times. I can't believe how the time has passed this pregnancy. It seems like just yesterday it was December, and we were looking at the positive sign!!

You're Daddy and I are ready to meet you. We may not be physically ready around the house, but you'll come to get used to that. Nothing is ever perfect, right. Life would be boring that way! I'm excited to get a glimpse of you on Monday! See how scrunched you are in there! You sure seem like you are living in tight quarters.

Until then, I will continue to dream of your little baby toes and sweet baby nose.....of the color of your hair and whether you will come with your brother's tell-all eyes!! I love you to the moon and back all ready little one!

Some Randomness

• My Hubby and I are addicted to Otter Pops. We sit down at least 2 or 3 nights a week after Monkey has gone to sleep and go through 10-12 of them between the two of us. We've decided their like chips, you can't have just one!!
• My brother and sister-in-law are going to see Kenny Chesney, Sugarland, Miranda Lambert, & Montgomery Gentry in Seattle in 2 weeks. We were suppose to go, but I made the responsible decision to not fly at that point in my pregnancy!! Oh man how I want to go! Another year.....right??!!
• I scheduled my next hair appt. this last week. It will be after the baby is born. YIKES!!
• On the topic of pregnancy, I FEEL PREGNANT!! I was so fooled with my first pregnancy. It was a piece of cake. I never felt uncomfortable! This time I spend most of the afternoon and all evening feeling like a pregnant waddling duck. I swear he has a hot poker in there that he is running up and down my lower ribs. It is such an awful feeling!! I never thought I'd be ready but I'm pretty darn close to being done. I guess it is only 1 month from tomorrow.....DOUBLE YIKES when I look at it that way. So much to do yet!
• Nobody should be able to drive blue, white, or gray pick-up trucks, since Monkey's Dada has a blue one, he used to drive a white one for a company vehicle and now drives a gray truck. Why, you ask......because Monkey has a stroke every time we pass a truck that is one of those colors. The poor little guy is yelling "Dada, dada" in the most desperate little voice ever. He actually cried hysterically the other day when we didn't get off the highway with the white truck that was in front of us. Poor little guy. He just idolizes his dada!

Pack the flip flops, beach towel, and my Husband!!!

My Hubby's company family picnic was last night!! Good food, a bounce house, a clown with balloons, and plenty of dirt for Monkey to play in! Also, the annual drawing for all the prizes.

They always give away a ton of stuff, including a couple of grand prizes. We were bummed when they reached the time to give away the two grand prizes and nothing even close to our number was called. Figured better luck next time, right??

Uh, WRONG!!!!!

We won two first class tickets to anywhere Alaska Airlines flies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hip, hip, hooray......whoo hoo.......can you say Mommy and Daddy time!!!!!!!!!! I can!!

I told him the tickets would include only the two of us, would not go to Omaha, and would involve a destination that required our swimsuits and flip flops in the middle of the LONG winter up here!! He wholeheartedly agreed!!!

I can't wait to spend a vacation with my irresistible Hubby all to myself!!!

Slow Down

You make me slow down and appreciate life.

To watch the ants (aunts) crawl about.

To chase the spiders up the driveway.

To stare out the window and watch the robin (berd) skip and play in the backyard.

To smell the tall yellow flowers that grow under the trees.

To look to the sky and notice the airplanes that fly over.

To feel the prickly pokes of the spruce trees (tees).

To stop and dance to the music in the middle of making lunch.

To fall in love with your dada all over again everytime he comes home and both of your faces light up when you see each other.

To hug the puppies for no reason but they're just there under our feet.

To throw the ball over and over again.

To dig in the dirt and then find the hose to make mud out of the dirt on our toes.

To find amazement in ever rock and stick we find.

To love the feeling of having you come plop down in my lap with a book that you've picked out to read.

To laugh at silly faces until we can't laugh anymore.

To savor every love you give me and every moment you will always be my first baby.

I love you little one with all my heart and soul.

Thank you for showing me what life is really all about.

18 already??!!

My Monkey, how did you get to 18 months already? It seems like just yesterday that I held you so tiny in my arms. Now you are a energetic little boy who loves and lives life to the fullest. You have opened up your Mama and Dada's eyes in ways we never comprehended. You bring us such joy and laughter!! Not a day goes by that we are not simply amazed at the things you do or say! We love you to the moon and back little man!

Busy Days

I know....it's been too long. We've been having unbelievable weather up here though, and I don't want to sit down at the computer. I'm going to do a mini catch-up post! If anything, just for me b/c they're things I wanted to blog about but haven't taken the time. Here goes....

~Babymoon~My hubby and I took a mini babymoon the weekend before the 4th. He had a buddy from work getting married down in Kenai, so we seized the opportunity and enlisted his aunt to watch Monkey. They were delighted to have him for the weekend, and we were more than delighted to have some much needed Mama and Dada time. The weather was fabulous, the wedding was fun, the lodging was free because we used the camper, and the time was well deserved. We decided we needed to do this more often!! For us and the kiddos! We'll see if we stick to our guns.

~Sunshine Galore~I can't even begin to explain to you what fantastic weather we are having up here.....like breaking record temperature weather. It was 84 degrees here on Tuesday! That just doesn't happen very often in Alaska. We are soaking it up! I have a tan like I've been to a Caribbean island or something! We have brought out the pool, the sprinkler, and feasted on Otter Pops!! Thank you God for shining down on us! We are so blessed to have this beautiful summer!

~4th of July~What a wonderful weekend full of family, sun, sand, water, and endless food! It's a tradition with my Hubby's family to go to the lake for the 4th! We packed up the camper, the dogs, and the 4-wheelers and headed to the lake. It was a wonderful, relaxing weekend. Endless amounts of sunshine and splashing in the water. Monkey dug in the sand for hours on end! The fireworks were fabulous (always let off by none other than my Hubby). I read many a chapters in my book. Hubby wake boarded and barefooted (yep, skiing barefoot....he is amazing)! He said he does that because it makes him feel young. I told him we will always be young b/c that's just the kind of people that we are....at least young at heart!!

My Daddy, My Hero

Happy Daddy's Day!!

I love you!!!!

An Update

I had a doctor's appointment yesterday, and once again, we talked delivery. VBAC vs. C-section. I'm continuing to measure about a cm larger than I should be. With Monkey, I was right on every time. Dr. Hinkle is a gem, and he knows I don't want to go with a section. He's trying to be so gentle with getting me to accept reality. We decided yesterday to go ahead and get me on the surgery schedule because he wanted me to have a good surgery date and time. We'll still do the ultrasound at 36 weeks to see how big our baby boy is, but it looks like a section is going to be our safest bet. Schedule comes out next week, so we should know next appt whether it will be the 19th, 20th, or 21st of August.

I told Hubby last night as we were chatting in bed that it's kinda strange to know the date our baby is going to be born. He agreed. Me, the lover of surprises, is not really okay with that. There, I said it. BUT, I am very okay with doing what is best for me and our baby. Right now, that is to schedule his birthday. Who knows, maybe I'll go earlier than 39 weeks and the scan will show a little guy in there, and out he will come! If not, no matter what, everything will be perfect. As my BFF said today, it will be nice to be able to put Monkey to bed the night before knowing what the next day holds!!

Nine weeks and counting little man! I love you to the moon and back already!

Some Random Monkeyness

• I never ever grow tired of hearing your pitter patter throughout the house. Whether it be stocking footed pitter patter or the bare footed slightly-stick-to-the floor pitter patter. I told my Mom that when she was up, and she commented that the sad thing is you don't even realize when that has gone away until one day when you no longer hear it. It happens way too fast. Lately, I've been trying to tuck the pitter patter sound away in the corners of my mind to pull out later when I need to remember you being little.
• You kissed me the other morning!!! I think my smile was wider than my cheeks would allow. It's always been a routine that you give me a love when I get you out of your seat after eating. I figured that this way I at least had an average of three times a day where you might give in and finally give me a kiss. Sure enough, you leaned in for the open mouther yesterday morning. I loved it up!! You probably thought I was crazy for the silly dance that I did with you, but I've been treated to at least two more since then. Keep 'em coming Monkey!
• I think you share a love for Dave Matthews Band like your Mama and Dada. We were watching his concert on TV the other night and all of a sudden you dropped what you were doing and started dancing to "Corn Bread". Not just your sway back and forth dancing but really dancing....spinning circles and everything! Too cute!
• You're favorite toy in the car right now is your little blue hammer that talks when you hammer with it. You are forever "building" something in your car seat repeating "hommer, hommer" over and over again!!
• You are officially a dare devil. I may have already granted you this title, so if I have, I'm giving it to you again! I looked up to find you almost in the middle of the kitchen table the other day (and we have one of those high tables that's like 3 feet off the ground). Today at the playground you climbed the ladder to the big kid slide a bazillion times. Nothing scares you. I don't know if this is a good thing little man?!
• It's so neat to watch you grow. You understand more and more everyday. The other week I said that we needed to find your shoes so we could go bye-bye, and I went about finishing what I was doing. You had scampered off only to return holding your shoes out to me! I melted (doesn't take much if you haven't already figured that out). It's no wonder you sleep for 11-12 hours a night. Your little brain is like a super sponge that soaks up all experiences and replays them at random. So smart you are!! You make Mama and Dada so proud!

Seventeen Months

Happy 17 months to my little man!

So full of love, life, giggles, and fun!

I love you!

A Mommy Confession

I let you fall asleep in my arms last night, Monkey. I took advantage of how tired you were. You drank your milk, we said our prayers, sang "Twinkle, Twinkle", and as I was humming you our last lullaby your eyelids got really heavy. I kept rocking and humming a wee bit longer as those baby blues closed.

I savored those few sleepy smiles that you have given since you were a newborn. I took in all your sleepy twitches and how your breathing turned heavy. I held your hand and kissed your sweet cheeks. For I know that these moments are fewer and farther between little one. You are growing too fast.

As I finally gave in and walked you to your bed, you were cradled in my arms and your little head dropped back. I was taken back to when you were so little and couldn't support your precious little head yourself. I glimpsed you again as a teeny tiny little baby. So new and sweet. How does the time go so fast?

Sweet dreams Monkey....I love you so very, very much!

Already planned!!!

Tuesday night my Husband asked me what I wanted to do for our anniversary the next night. Me, not really being the planner lately, didn't have huge plans laid out in my brain. His response, "Good because I already have Auntie lined up to babysit, so you need to pick where we're going to dinner!" I about fell off the bed! That was the best anniversary present.....to plan nothing and have him take the initiative to plan the night.

It was my choice to stay in town and go to the little local restaurant or go into Anchorage to one of the many restaurants. Me, being the low-keyed one, chose to stay local rather than drive all the way and get home super late!

It was fabulous! My ultra handsome husband across the table from me. Sun streaming through the window with the waterfall right outside. Fillet that melts in your mouth. Wonderful conversation. And creme brulee with two spoons to top it all off.

We weren't quite ready to head home after dinner, so we stopped at the ball fields and watched his cousins play softball. I kept the book. He heckled each of them as they came to the plate.

Some may think I'm crazy, but that is a wonderful anniversary to me. Simple.

After four years of marriage, he never ceases to amaze me. I fall more and more in love with him every year. We grow stronger with each passing year. Each full of new challenges and laughter that never stops (so much laughter that last week the bathroom mirror ended up with toothpaste all over it because I couldn't hold it back).

Thanks for being my rock babe! I love you forever and always!

A Roar, Long Necks, Banana Snacks?

Where do you find all of the above?

Hint: In a certain baby boy's room.

Along with colors like jalapeno pepper, bonbon, and wild artichoke.

The transformation has started.

Stay tuned for updates and the final results!!!

My Mama

My Mom has been up to visit and help me get the new baby's room started (and to play Grandma to Monkey, which she was a gigantic help with)! She told me last night on the way to the airport that she is going to bring her extra-energy vitamins when she comes back up in August!! She experienced a good taste of Monkey's endless bounds of energy. She witnessed it all from the sweet, contagious giggles to the endless amounts of dirt, rocks, and sticks one little boy can collect to the beginning of the terrible two temper tantrums. By the end of the week, Monkey was saying Gama every once in a while.

There's nothing like having your Mom around. You really appreciate the time when you live 1000s of miles from her. It was so nice to have her help and opinion on things. I was indecisive about what I was going to do with the room, but with both of our brains working together, it only took us 10 minutes to decide what we needed (and I love, love, love the end result). She was so excited to be able to help me with baby stuff. We didn't get as far as she had anticipated we would, but we got a good start on it. I know she would have loved to see the furniture up and bedding in, but Monkey takes up alot of our time.....I didn't want to be so engrossed in the room that we missed out on playtime. We took advantage of the beautiful weather and planted flowers, took many walks, and a "few" trips to Target.

Most importantly, she got to spoil Monkey. She made him a tent to fit over the kitchen table which came in handy on the few rainy days we had. He loved his special fort. It was an endless source of laughter and peeky games.

I think she gave him so many rides in the laundry basket, tubs, and on the 4-wheeler that her buns hurt by the time she left. She said she had to at least have lost a few pounds playing.

There were books upon books read, cars raced, balls bounced, chase played, and many snuggles. It was wonderful! I only wish it were easier to visit like this. Oh, to have a private jet to fly us whenever we felt the urge to go visit Gama and Gampa. What....a girl can dream right!!!

Thanks Mama for coming to visit. We loved our time with you!! Can't wait to see you again in August!! Love you!

Enjoying Daddy!!

Gosh, it's been a long time! Can't say I'm sorry as we have been enjoying having Daddy home. He surprised us and came home two days early...yippee! Monkey has been loving helping out with the yard and building the shed. He has gone for numerous 4-wheeler rides. It's been nice having him off work and relaxed. Mama has been loving having the extra help and the companionship back in the house!!

Re-do

PROBLEM

Temperamental Toddler + MIA Dada + Worn Out Mama = Bummer Mommy's Day

SOLUTION

Redo Mommy's Day next Sunday when Dada is finally home!

+36 hours

You've been without a temperature over 102 degrees for over 36 hours now Monkey. I thought we were never going to reach this point. Six days was long enough. I know you were so tired of having your temp checked every time we changed your diaper, and believe me, it was no fun for Mama either. To watch it rise all the way to 104.8 degrees.....you were so hot and so uncomfortable. You cling to me like a baby Monkey clings to his Mama.

And all because of a dang virus. I even gave in and took you to the ER Thursday night because even Tylenol and Ibuprofen wouldn't bring it down. You were such a good little boy there considering they were poking and prodding on you, sticking swabs up your nose, and making you wait so long. No pokes or xrays though. Thank goodness!

This was our first big sick experience, and it was no fun. You were such a good medicine taker before and now you want nothing to do with that syringe full of purple goo. Can't say I blame you, but it breaks Mama's heart to make you take it. I'm so glad I decided to never be a Peds RN, as I couldn't handle all the tears and sad eyes.

You are starting to get back to yourself! Can't wait till we're back to 12 hours of sleep without waking up and not-so-short tempers are few and far between.

Super Sixteen

Oh my little Monkey.....

When oh when did you get to be 16 months old? You are growing much too fast for your Mama. You're definitely not a baby anymore. You are a full fledged toddler. I am in awe over what you can accomplish in a day. Lately, a new word everyday.....ball, Elmo, Abby, doggie. The other day you found your pretend keys and marched over to the door. You put them up to the doorknob to unlock the door. We rarely use keys to unlock doors around here b/c Mama has the garage door opener. How did you know? When did you get so smart?

Tonight at dinner you were using your fork like a pro. Each stab at the bowl produced some mac and cheese noodles that were quickly scarfed down by you. You have switched from your left to your right hand to eat and seem to be having more luck striking gold with your food. Last night, you couldn't gobble down the chicken noodle soup fast enough. How did you become big enough to use a fork and spoon successfully?

The other day I was getting ready so we could run to Target. You were pawing through the bathroom drawer like you always do when I'm getting ready. Hoping to strike it rich on something new and exciting. You settled for a comb you hadn't seen in awhile. Right away you started to "style" your own hair! So handsome you are!! Then you lifted up your comb to me, so I obliged and squatted down. You helped Mama "style" her hair for the day! You never cease to amaze me little man.

I had given up on the more sign. It's been a few months since I'd signed it to you because I was convinced you wanted nothing to do with signs. They weren't catching on. No big deal! We seem to communicate pretty good without them. Out of the blue the other morning you pointed at the Kix box and signed more!!! I was giddy with excitement that you remembered after such a long time and that I had actually taught you something. We ate lots of Kix that morning....kid tested, mother approved right?

Last night when we were sitting in the ER (another blog in itself), you stripped down to nothing but a diaper, you leaned over and started tickling your feet. Funny, since you are incredibly ticklish....just like your Mama. I would say "tickle, tickle", and you would gently tickle the bottoms of your feet. Too cute...I wished I would have had a video camera with me. I'm sure Mama's toes are next one of these days!!

Lately, I have been snuggling you extra long before bed. Taking in your little boy smell. I'm sad at how fast you are growing and want to soak up all of you right now. You have been under the weather, so you're making it easy for me to love on you. You have been falling asleep in my arms and I have been relishing all of those moments. Every once in a while, you give me a sleepy smile that reminds me of when you were so little and new. You're mouth will pop open just a touch and you will give a little sigh....oh i'm so in love with you.

I love how you choose to come sit on my lap now. How we brush our teeth together every morning with you usually sitting in my lap. How you are so innocent and amazed at all things new....like when i found you crawling in the entry way the other night....funny i thought until i realized you were crawling after a spider....you were so intrigued with this 8 legged creature sharing space with us (me, not so intrigued). How you stopped everything this morning to watch a robin hop her way across the yard in search of bugs. How you walked over to a "wock" in the driveway, picked it up, and threw it back with all the others....when did you learn to say rock?

I can't get enough of you right now Monkey! I can't wait for Dada to come home and share all these fun and amazing moments with me. You are my world....my universe! I never imagined I could feel this way about someone. I am totally enamored by everything you do and say. Everyone tells me it only gets better. How can it get any better? I think these are the best moments of my life right now! I just want to soak you all in. Thanks for being that little boy your Mama always dreamed of....Happy 16 months Monkey!

6 Strikes

1. Five days overdue with Monkey.
2. Three hours of pushing with Monkey.
3. Emergent C-section with Monkey.
4. 8 lbs, 4 oz. ~ Our 1st Sweet Baby Boy ~ Second babies are usually bigger.
5. Monkey's going to have a little brother. ~ Boys are typically larger than girls.
6. Measured almost 26 weeks today ~ I'm really only 24 weeks.

All this equals a high chance for another c-section.

VBAC not completely ruled out, but at this point, the odds are against us. Am I disappointed? A bit. Do I want to do what is safe for me and the baby? Of course. Is it written in stone right now? No.

It's a wait and see game right now. We'll do a scan at 36-37 weeks to get an estimated weight on our little guy and to measure the thickness of my uterine scar. The results will determine if we schedule for a section or not. I really would love to go natural because I don't want the added stress of abdominal surgery. I don't want to worry about whether I can pick up Monkey or not. Although, I've vowed not to get all Mommied up about it right now and just let it ride. I'll be honest....it's hard not to think about it.

One for sure positive ~ My family can plan to be up here for the birth. According to Dr., we would be looking at August 20th or 21st. My parent's anniversary is the 20th....kinda neat!!

Stay tuned for updates!

First Summer Days

With all the wonderful sunshine over the last four days, we have spent ALOT of time outside playing. We went to the playground three days in a row! I've learned that you are a little daredevil....not that I didn't I already suspect that of you little Monkey!

You weren't holding back when it came to the slides! You loved the tire swing and the swing bridge! You would have crawled up the tire ladder if I hadn't shown you the holes you were going to crawl through!

We inherited a "new" tricycle and push car from wonderful friends and neighbors. You love to be pushed in the car. We have taken daily walks to the mailbox. Admiring the leaves starting to peak out, the grass starting to stand up, and the birds starting to sing. You love all the airplanes flying over, always sure to point to the sky when you hear one. You are after your Dada and Great-Grandpa's heart.

Along with playgrounds, new toys, and running outside comes first scrapes. I hated that they were coming but knew it was inevitable. Especially since it has been warm enough for shorts. Your little elbow sports a scrape from falling off your tricycle and your knee a few scratches from a run in with the rake. If that wasn't enough, you tumbled down the stairs into the garage and hit your cheek on the corner of the bench. Poor little man!! Mama hates to see you hurt. I guess like the doctor said, "if you're cruising, you're bruising"!!

Nonetheless, it doesn't slow you down little man. I can't wait to see what the rest of the summer brings! Your endless energy, and your excitement for all things new brings a smile to my face even this moment. Even when I find you crawling across the floor chasing after a spider....for once the spider didn't make me sigh.....it made me smile at the sight of your innocence!

Happy summer days to come Monkey!

Happy May Day!!!

I can't wait until next year when you really understand what May Day is all about! It's not really very popular here like it is where Mama grew up. We're going to have to introduce all the kids on the street to it next year. We will be basket making fools next year....I promise little one!

I remember how much I looked forward to this day all spring! All the kids in the neighborhood would run around trying to sneak their baskets on to each others doorstep without them noticing. Plus it was a chance to get some candy and popcorn.....kinda like a mini Halloween without the costumes and with a little sneakiness added in!!

To all who love this day....Happy May Day!!

Tall Boy

26 pounds

33 inches

You are such a big boy! So tall! Healthy as a horse! So brave for your shots (ouchy)!

Here's to strong and healthy Monkey!

Thank You Monkey

Monkey~

Thank you so much little man for being such a good little boy lately. You have been wonderful for your Mama while Dada has been gone. One week down, two more to go! Each day has been something new, whether it being blowing kisses, telling me "go, go", exploring rocks and sticks, or playing in the dirt. You have discovered the dirt in my flower barrels that is waiting so patiently for the beautiful summer flowers. You dig in and laugh like crazy when you throw it on the ground. It is quite funny! We soaked up the spring sun today, didn't we? You can't get enough and neither can Mama.

You have also discovered how to soak Mama while you are taking a bath. You splash with your feet like a fish out of water and laugh that deep belly laugh you do so well. I can't help but laugh along with you. What's a little wet floor and shirt? It all mops up and changes easily! These are the moments that I want to soak up (literally, I guess) with you because I know they will be fleeting before you move on to something else.

You are the little boy I always dreamed of having. Strong willed yet tenderhearted at the same time. Full of life and laughter going 150 mph all the time yet will snuggle in for a good book anytime. A lover of puppy dogs, airplanes in the sky, dirt and rocks, anything with a motor and wheels, and your hockey sticks. I love that you are starting to show your emotions. Waving bye-bye, blowing kisses, and just tonight, you came up behind me after your bath and wrapped your little arms around me as far as they could reach and laid your head on my shoulder. My heart burst with love for you at that moment. It makes me teary right now just thinking of how that felt. A Mama always looks forward to that first hug, and it was more than I could have ever imagined it would ever feel like. Unbelievable Monkey!! I love you so, so, so very much! Words will never suffice!

XOXO,

Your Mama

Animal Talks

I wish I had a peep hole into your bedroom. You are in there carrying on one heck of a bedtime conversation with your animals. You must have had more to say in your prayers than we talked about. Maybe your singing them a lullaby too! Whatever it is, it's pretty darn cute Monkey!

Good night, sweet dreams, God bless you!!

Blowing Kisses

You blew your first kiss tonight! It was so priceless!

We were telling Grandma and Grandpa goodbye on the web cam. You were waving and saying bye bye. Grandma was blowing you kisses, and you decided to return the gesture! It was so cute! Made me teary (my pregnancy hormones are at full tilt right now). G & G ate it up of course!

Long Time Gone

I've been MIA for a while because we went down to visit my family for my little sis's wedding. It was a great trip but very busy. I didn't get to see the people I wanted to see b/c there was wedding stuff to do! Always makes it harder to go back home. I even thought about extending my ticket, but I didn't want to do the trip home by myself with Monkey. I should have just bit the bullet and done it because my bestest friend in the whole wide world had her third beautiful baby girl the VERY NEXT DAY!! I am so happy for her, but so sad that I was that close to finally sharing a birth with her. Welcome to the world precious one!!

Speaking of babies and births, I never updated about our secret! We are having another little boy!!!!!! I. Am. So. EXCITED!!!! Two little boys! Double the dirt, the hockey sticks, the wrestling matches, the trucks, the shenanigans, and so on and so forth! I'm truly outnumbered now and loving it!! They are going to be the best of buddies.....I can just feel it!!

Back to the trip, the plane ride down was absolutely horrible! Monkey had a meltdown for the entire 5 hour plane ride except for 40 minutes when he finally gave in and fell asleep before we landed. I cried. Hubby's spent a total of almost 2.5 hours in the bathroom, so he didn't disturb people with his screaming. On a positive note, the trip home was great. He's a lot of work to keep occupied for five plus hours, but he wasn't crying!

My sister's wedding was beautiful. She was stunning! She swore it was going to rain on her day, and it did. By the time we walked out of the salon to head to the church, the rain had stopped. When the ceremony was over the sun had broke through. Monkey was the ring bearer! He was so handsome he made me tear up. He looked so big in his tux with his hair all styled courtesy of Dada! He made his entrance to the bridal march because we didn't think he was going to come down the aisle (as it was taking a while for his appearance). Needless to say, everyone was standing by then and staring at him, so I walked back down the aisle and offered a finger to hold. He gladly took my assistance and then monkey shined with everyone as he walked down the aisle!! So cute!!

The weather was great! We went to the zoo! Played outside in our bare feet. Played in the dirt for the first time. Now he can't get enough of the dirt!

The best thing....he now recognizes Bampa (Grandpa) and Bama (Grandma) in pictures and on the web cam! Melts there hearts and his Mama's too!!

Secret

I watched the best show of the year today! My baby doing stretching and finger sucking on an ultrasound. You couldn't wipe the smile off my face! How sweet you were little one! Kind of stubborn at first laying on your back and then folded into a pretzel! But we were able to see everything we needed to know that you are a healthy little peanut!!! You definitely are going to have your Daddy's lips like your brother has. We're pretty sure you're going to have Mommy's crooked pinkie fingers too! Amazing the things you can know today before you even make your grand entrance!!

Your secret is still safe with you! I do have the answer to that special secret tucked away into a beautiful red envelope waiting for your Daddy to come home. I don't even feel the need to peek by holding it up to the sunlight. Crazy, huh, little one! I love, love, love surprises, and if your Daddy didn't want to know so bad I think I could keep that envelope sealed for days. But I also think it will be fun to open that up together and see the picture of your little secret!

Until then little one, I love you more and more with each passing day!

New Words and Such

You're new words lately are:

up, haut (hot, with specific emphasis on the "t" sound), cat, hat (again emphasizing the "t"), ases (ashes, ashes we all fall down)

I've tried and tried to teach you the sign for "more", but you insist on using your own sign, shaking your hand up and down repeatedly. It's too cute to worry about it not being the actual sign. Just makes it more unique to you.

You are pointing at everything lately. You love that this now can get you what you want. I love it because we are communicating! It's so fun to see what your needs and wants are Monkey.

Decisions

I've had something bugging me for the past month or so. My bestest friend would tell you it's stressing me out too much. I would tell you I'm over-analyzing it and trying to avoid what I avoid best....change.

I'm a nurse. Nurses work 12-hour shifts. My wonderful hubby is a superintendent for an always busy oilfield company. Needless to say, his hours and whereabouts are unpredictable. My mother-in-law has so graciously agreed to watch Monkey for us when we are both at work, which involves being at our house sometimes as early as 5:15 in the morning....ugh. Then she would take Monkey for the day, so I could get some sleep coming off the night-shift.

I've switched to days this week (which by the way has been a wonderful switch for me.....I'm much more rested just in one week), but my husband has also left to work away from home on a 3 week on/3 week off schedule....double ugh. When I first returned to work after maternity leave, I was dreading it. I wanted to stay home and be a Mommy. Not miss out on my little man's day. Being the insurance provider, that wasn't an option though. So I begrudgingly went to work. Lo and behold, I enjoyed my two shifts a week. I could get away and get the adult conversation and know that I was still good at doing something besides being a Mommy. I almost felt a little bit guilty that I enjoyed my time at work so much. But I didn't let that get to me (for once in my life).

Before I switched to days, we asked my MIL if she was stilling willing to watch Monkey b/c it now could potentially be a wake-up to bed time day for the both of them. She was willing. But we also discussed her willingness when the new baby comes, and she was more reluctant. Fine by us. She is suppose to be a Grandma not a day care. We completely respected that decision.

Now with my Hubby gone for such long stretches of time, I started stressing again about whether I should be working again, whether I should look for something in Day Surgery that would give me 10-hour days, whether I should start looking to enroll Monkey in day care now. Lots of decision and so came the tears and stress level with it. Our problem is that there is not a trustworthy day care that operates on our crazy hours. If we had a regular 7-5 work day, life would be easy. But we don't. And in-home day care service scares the begeebers out of me (you always hear all those neglect and abuse stories). I could never put Monkey or our new baby in one without knowing hands down that it was legit.

So I started looking for insurance quotes online to get a rough idea of what we would be looking at if I did have to quit my job. That brought that idea to a screeching halt b/c either they don't cover maternity or you have to be with the plan for 12 months. Ain't happenin'. This baby is coming in 5 months.

All of sudden the stress level disappeared. I knew what we had to do. I have to stay working until this baby comes and then we will reevaluate our needs and wants. Yes, it will be a little stressful and inconvenient when my MIL is gone for 6 weeks starting mid-May and then again starting beginning of August until the baby is born. We'll deal though.

How come I made this such a stress ball for myself? It was that easy. Sometimes I just shake my head at myself and my idiosyncrasies. Decisions have always been killer for me. Thank goodness we always learn something new out of them.

How Long?

Looking down at my shirt after putting Monkey down this afternoon, I realized I had a boogey woogey (our lingo for a booger b/c I don't like that word) on my shirt.

We've been to JoAnn's and Freddy's.

How long has it been there?

Hmmmm....comes with being a Mommy, right!

Little Boy

Monkey, you are such a little boy. Not that we ever doubted that you wouldn't be. You go 100 mph until you crash and burn all day, everyday. I always know when we have driven by a dump truck, loader, tractor, or any other large piece of machinery because I heard the signature "ummm, ummm" from the back seat. Every morning you check the back yard to make sure the snowmachines are still there, and you let me know that they are safe and sound with an "ummm, ummm". I love it!!

One of your most favorite spots is behind the wheel or handle bar of any vehicle or toy! Your smile is never bigger than when you are standing behind the wheel of Dada's truck. You love to ride your own little 4-wheeler around the house. Especially when we are pushing you fast! You will go over and sit on it, put your feet up on the front fender, and look at us like "come on, what are you waiting for, let's ride!"

Last week, I was sitting on the kitchen while you were bouncin' around in the kitchen playing. All of a sudden I heard you running around chasing something. I turned around to find you with hockey stick in hand chasing your little green ball around. Who taught you how to play hockey? How did you know what to do with your stick? We had just brought the sticks down a few days before. Amazing little one!

If I would let you, you would spend the entire day in the garage.....checking out the 4-wheeler, the snow blower, the air compressor, circling Mom's car, checking out the buckets, and repeating this over and over. You cry when we have to come in from the garage. And we must at least touch the 4-wheeler before we get in the car to go anywhere. If we don't, you play stiff-as-a-board when I try to put you in your car seat!!

You love to be licked by the puppies! I know, why do I let my son be licked by the dogs? Because I love puppy kisses just as much as he loves puppy kisses. Whether they be our two goofy dogs or Shasta across the street, you giggle with utter glee every time you get a puppy kiss!

Thank you for being the little boy I always dreamed of having! You make your Mommy's day everyday!! I love you sweet Monkey!